Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Busy Week

Cortisone shot on Monday and face looks like I have spent  days in the sun,
did not take affect immediately like those in the past.
I hobbled in and Stacy the nurse replied "why did you wait so long you could have received this shot 3 weeks ago?)
replied just trying to go as long as I could, not a good idea as pain was horrible.
Appointment made in 3 weeks for shoulders.  Never the one who took medication and now seems
if I want some quality of life in these 80's and who knows how long I will live :) I will have to be more diligent in taking these shots.

I continue long consultation times with my new doctor.   I always just referred to my body as full
of arthritis, never 2 things. Now I realize it is  Rheumatoid, because of all the pain, it is from my auto immune disorder
Sjogrens ( diagnosed 12 years ago - never heard of it :) and now osteo settling in as there is deterioration lik e in my knee - just wearing out and if much younger would have knee placement but cannot now.
Lucky me all of this did not start until my 70's.   So many young people have this.condition, so
I had many perfect years...

Now I know that the body does not last forever :)

Special friend brought me lunch yesterday - so good
and healthy - broccoli salad and Waldorf salad (chopped apples, grapes, celery, etc) chicken salad.
I will duplicate soon along with tuna or egg salad and also she brought  a slice of chocolate chip pie.
Pushing more food as with every time short hospital stay I loose weight,  Need to gain 5 lbs.
Adding a protein shake daily from now,
I have always been petite, never ate a lot but now at the point I need too and do not have much appetite.  Always loved to cook, bake and can.   Seems I have to push now.  Guess it is all
natural but remembering family before me with arthritis, they just sat and had plenty of weight.
I am a mover, love to do but need to eat more :)

Doctor said to eat often, even a snack in the middle of the night.

They arrived to finish drive this afternoon, only did 1/3 of drive, down past my Wood haven sign , still another 800 feet to road.    So nice and I can walk many times daily.
Should have done it years ago but always watching finances, gravel drive did not bother me
but now cannot walk on it with cane in hand, need to walk a lot, hate to have anyone drive on my new drive it:)  barriers up
to protect another day....

Very tired at the moment
it was a long day but a good day....

Sunday, June 18, 2017

She's Home

One of my youngest granddaughter's is home from mission trip to Mexico.

Was picked up at airport at 7:00- AM this Sunday morning.

Now this was 2 days late, some were sick and also plane problem.
So happy she is home and also Miss Zoey crawled up beside her :)

Grandma feels in her heart
that this may be a life changing event for her,

Father's day picture that Jamie posted on instagram
of dad and his girls...
The soninlaw who has called me "other mother" since he
was a teenager and dating my girl....

A rainy day, drove to market and now have a Starbucks in remodeled
market -  never indulged in these like my girls.
Bought a tomato, spinach wrap filled with feta cheese, spinach and
egg white ,    So good and a glass of Mango tea,

Thought they were grilling ribs but guess because of rain
did not do,

Did not feel like cooking today.
In the morning Cortisone shot in knee,  

Saturday, June 17, 2017

Life at the Moment

New header my two youngest children out for lunch on Jimmy's visit here during March and April.
Youngest granddaughter.

I go outside,  walk carefully with cane in hand
sun is brightly shining
new blooms daily
and oh how I miss deadheading my lilies and bending over to pull a weed.

Some could not relate to my comment
but this one with a life filled with gardening
misses these simple pleasures.   But so much to be thankful for at this moment.
I miss my family but it is the way it is when you reach this stage of life and not possible
for them to be here with me more then they are.
I have never been needy, do not like sharing that it seems it is happening even with
all of my interests.
So much accomplished in the past through my joy of creating and thankful for being allowed to return
to this beautiful wooded surrounded retreat.

Thoughts return to emergency hospital visit.  Beth my nurse daughter was on the way, Jamie the
writer also but then a flat tire.   My Laurie, the artist in Maine and special son Jimmy in Thailand
where he teaches Yoga.
Now home but miss these 4 grown children of mine and 5 exceptional grandchildren, one in Washington, DC, New York and Nantucket and my two youngest in the big city not far away,

I do not like being limited in what I can do and very difficult for me to accept.
Driving, but not at the moment, Balance horrible and cannot fall,
do not like the cane but it is a must and so thankful to have a trusted driver (but when needed at time
911 call was made  - he was on vacation in Florida

I have returned to a  local internist, the best in this small city. and probably the best in many areas I stopped seeing her several years ago
when she became a part of MD VIP.
Thought I could not justify the cost.
Now I realize this will keep me healthier in my remaining years, in my special cottage and need the special attention
I have been receiving.
Hours have been spent with me this past week and have needed the advice given
but was trying to do it my way.

Sad that I have left my past health person, Sherry so kind and her nurse Peyton but seems I need a little more attention at this time,.

Seems I was not doing as well as I thought
and I must remember

"Nothing is permanent"

life is like a kaleidoscope
a slight change and all patterns alter

Sharon Salzberg

Thursday, June 15, 2017

Beautiful Flowers and Healing Me

Sunday night called 911 to go to hospital,   Felt like I was going to faint.  Bladder condition
continuing and needed more then I was doing to heal myself..   Home and following instructions.

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

Great Grandmother :)

More news
news that makes me smile in a way I cannot stop smiling.

The first grandchild, My Jessica who would visit me at the old farm house years ago
when she was a toddler.  The one who talked to me like a grown up and I always said she had
an old soul..

Just received her call and she is 3 months pregnant, a baby boy, Christmas baby and to think
I will be a great grandmother

Many years ago when her and brother were visiting.
and now

Now Iris no longer blooming and now it is Day Lilly time

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Happy Birthday

It seems like yesterday
this granddaughter was born
Spent so many times with me
and now she is 15.....Happy Birthday my special granddaughter....

Monday, June 5, 2017

Simmering on a Rainy Day

Calling for an all day rain, need to eat and spaghetti sounded good, have not made in a long time.

Ground meat, tomato sauce, onions, mushrooms all on hand and in the crisper 1/2 red and yellow pepper.
I have never seen these used but just threw in there anyway.  At the end, will sneak out in the rain
for some of my fresh Basil, garlic on hand and even a tiny bottle of white wine, will add all of that.
and grade some fresh Parmesan cheese on it.
So sounds tasty and hope it is.
I always keep ground beef, veal  and other ground meats in the freezer and freeze in 1/2 lb sections that are handy
for me to use for cooking.  Can use several if making a large amount.

Last week a friend stopped by and brought a slice of apple cake she had made and I asked for
the recipe.   Bake in a 8 x 8 pan and have the 2 apples and walnuts on hand to chop for cake.
Soon will make....